I called out a friend today that i haven't seen in forever (well technically she called me) and i was really excited to meet her up to 10 minutes before when i panicked.
crap.
i haven't seen this friend in a year. what if it's really awkward? what if there's tons of silences? i suck at one on one conversations!
i think i get it from my dad. i feel really socially awkward when i'm with someone by ourselves. i prefer to watch a movie in those situations or cook or play a game.
lately, even in big groups, i find myself just feeling awkward. i have no idea if im actually being awkward or not, but i'm really beginning to not like talking. there's probably only 5 people i can talk to one on one without feeling awkward.
take for instance at the kcf 1st meeting. sure, i didn't know that many people but even among the people i've known and i'm normally comfortable around, i didnt really say much. i used to be super energetic in large groups, but these days, i just feel like watching - i do like people watching.
was i always like this? or is this a "growth process"?
this time, i called out a friend who i know i feel awkward with. bah humbug
a photo outside my room at sunset
1. didn't know the sun set so fast - 2 min after this photo there was no colour
2. good thing there was no one home in those houses cuz i'd feel like a major creeper
3. winter makes me happy
crap.
i haven't seen this friend in a year. what if it's really awkward? what if there's tons of silences? i suck at one on one conversations!
i think i get it from my dad. i feel really socially awkward when i'm with someone by ourselves. i prefer to watch a movie in those situations or cook or play a game.
lately, even in big groups, i find myself just feeling awkward. i have no idea if im actually being awkward or not, but i'm really beginning to not like talking. there's probably only 5 people i can talk to one on one without feeling awkward.
take for instance at the kcf 1st meeting. sure, i didn't know that many people but even among the people i've known and i'm normally comfortable around, i didnt really say much. i used to be super energetic in large groups, but these days, i just feel like watching - i do like people watching.
was i always like this? or is this a "growth process"?
this time, i called out a friend who i know i feel awkward with. bah humbug
a photo outside my room at sunset
1. didn't know the sun set so fast - 2 min after this photo there was no colour
2. good thing there was no one home in those houses cuz i'd feel like a major creeper
3. winter makes me happy
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