pasta

*giggle*

Yoo-kyung: Chef.
Hyun-wook: Cactus or chef?
Yoo-kyung: Chef.
Hyun-wook: Cactus or pasta?
Yoo-kyung: Chef!

Yoo-kyung: Then the two of you must be really close.
Hyun-wook: You and I are closer now.
Yoo-kyung; How much closer?
Hyun-wook: As much as anchovy poop.
Yoo-kyung: Anchovies are half poop. They have a lot of poop.

Let the games begin

A photo of our library which is pretty nice at night. DC the other library becomes 24 hours starting Monday I believe.




Although happy to be studying now I know bythe end of it I'll be tired and ready to go home to a look for jobs, fall housing in Waterloo, and looking for ways to make money to save my broke butt.

I have to admit it's been embarrassing and very hurtful to my pride to rely on free food, people for money and having to drop my summer Distance Ed course because I won't be able to pay it. I've never had this situation and because I still owe my parents tons for lastterms tuition plus Urbana, I don't feel like I can really ask them for more money.

Being in KCF doesn't help as it's a culture immersed in bonding through eating. In addition, serving next year is exciting but they want all the leaders to go on a weeklong trip to Halifax to study mark. The cost? 500+ money I don't have nor do I feel right asking from my parents.

I have a lot to think about in the next two weeks. I think I knowthe answer to most of them it's just putting them into action that scares me. I'm so scared of making the wrong decision yet it frustrates me if I stay in the same spot.

For now though I have to study for my final midterm in environmental health, a course I really think I can do well in but don't have the time to memorize evry detail.

But nonetheless, fighting!!!

visual miscellaneum

i bought this book for myself because usually it's 39.95 but it was marked down to 26.96. introduced to me by dolly, it's a book full of information in image form. some of them are graphs, some of them are mind maps, or maps, but it's really cool!

Mind you, some of them are hard to read and some of them are a little confusing, but i think this is an awesome method of presenting information.

There's this one that i saw:



and i think it's an awesome representation of how's playing their part in saving the environment and who's just screwing around.

I think if these things are used not only in environmental issues but in healthcare, or like the social system, then couldn't it evoke greater change because the public will be more educated? People don't read anymore... or stats don't really say much, but i guess it's true that a picture can say a thousand words...

Responsibility

It's funny how a lack of responsibility allows one to have so much more fun than if one were to have the weight of several on his or her shoulders.


end.

Took this on the way to the Konnect retreat. I know I complain a lot about working with these people but in the end it's so rewarding.

Am I crazy to say I want to be involved again next year?

another late night, another post

BEAUTIFUL DAY!!


Current Location: CLV Unit 20 main floor
Current Activity: writing paper on how broccoli helps fight cancer
Current Time: 3:11AM
Current Mood: very chill

I wish i went out for st. patty's day today. everyone was clubbing or drinking and i was sitting in DC library til it closed and then at BMH lounge til dolly was done playing. And now while my lovely housemates sleep, i'm hating broccoli more and more despite its awesome health effects.

walking home last night.. deserted streets. it's pretty spooky yet strangely calming


the sunrise.. went to bed at 8AM and woke up for my 10AM class


Free food at dc. my cheap, fat friends RUN.


the sandwich can't even fit in ... she forces the lid shut


jocelyn's clearly excited to eat it.. she ate half of it in class cuz it wouldnt' fit into her tupperware




stole her cupcake.. she goes from begging for it back to beat you down mode


green slushy for st. patty's

study break number...... uh..

Current Location: BMH Fishbowl
Current Activity: studying with phil for 330 midterm.. today at 11:30AM
Current Time: 3:30AM
Current Mood: very happy


This week's events.

visiting my grandpa who is very sick but still insists on cleaning the apartment without help. sigh so stubborn.


found a ton of my uncle's athlete of the year awards and tournament trophies including a couple MVPs. dayum... i wish the athletic genes had transferred to me... i think they were all given to my figure skating cousin.

in addition.. lost volleyball today in the playoff game.. sigh


sashimi at wasabi all you can eat sushi.. MMM white tuna.. SO GOOD.. but threw up every time i ate for 2 days after... not pleasant..


waiting with sarah at the hospital yesterday after her basketball knee injury. we told her to be sad so they would triage her faster but no -_- she was laughing...


not so happy now that she has to hobble all over campus... and the fact i put an "I heart AHS" balloon on her bag did not make her happy


jocelyn loves AHS though!


i'm very overwhelmed but very chill at the same time. i don't know if it's because i'm numbed by the term or i'm actually stress managing, but i don't really care.. just taking one thing at a time :)


kcf exec... to be in it or not to be in it... 20 hours a week? that's quite a bit of time....

that's what friends are for

had the worst midterm of my life. prepared for a whole week, lived at the library, and studied my butt off and i blank. cried after the midterm and called up a friend.

she is an awesome friend.

First she made me laugh by bringing me a fruit popsicle with the explanation that she was going to bring me an ice cream one but then even though we crave unhealthy stuff when we're stressed we should still eat healthy. i don't think she realizes how much sugar is in those fruity ones too...

And then she reminded me that, yea, these things will happen and in times like these you gotta shake it off and start fresh. i'll probably go back to school and try to figure out what went wrong in my studying but for this weekend, i'm going to enjoy:

• lunch with my grandpa
  
• massaging my grandpa's legs cuz he's vitamin D deficient (i feel like a crappy g.daughter cuz i'm in health and i can't help my grandpa)
• all you can eat sushi dinner (NOM NOM NOM)
• church tomorrow
• moving

Before i go, can i just say this? I LOVE MY iPHONE. it lets me do EVERYTHING, including blogging, and i am now starting to blog short snippets that make me laugh during the day. AND i don't even need to buy a camera now cuz it can take pictures too. HOW CONVENIENT

Anyways, yesterday was a KCF auction and Ruth wanted to make an apple pie. Baking is my stress reliever but I was REALLY skeptical just cuz pies are hard to make and Ruth is... a little clumsy - haha. But it turned out quite well and being at the KCF guys' house is always fun.








She took apart the paper towel holder to use the stick as a rolling pin


Sang: Hey! your lipcloss looks like ... pulls out green face makeup used for his Hulk costume last year's halloween


The finished product! I was very impressed.


Baker Ruth


Ruth and Nish - although Nish didn't do anything -_-


Ruth after finishing baking. And Will oppa after playing my iphone game. Oh so tiring.

apathy vs being okay

i realized today that i've been trying to be apathetic about not receiving love when i wanted to be okay with not receiving love.

the difference seems so clear but how come i've missed it for so long?

on a side now, i was looking at freddy today.. who has carcinoma in some of his leaves and stems... i shouldn't have left him so much in the sun.

강냉이

Greatest study snack ever!

Jocely quotes

"I'm too lazy to take a crap at night!"


end.

Study time part...

Late night pizza at dwe. Studying at school til 330AM then going he to study with dolly while exercising on my yoga ball.

Good times

photo update

walking home at night. it's nice to see the sunset once in a while



what a difference.


during the olympics - dan's lucky monkey. Canda US game was tied at 2-2. and then we put the hockey helmet on the monkey and won.

a friend being lame at skating night for KCF - dressed as lee jung soo - double gold medallist at VAN2010



one of my best friends. dude. thanks for taking my crap every day heh heh




flexors of the forearm. from my anatomy colouring book

Despite all the stresses of being job-less, mark-less, and super busy with tons of stuff, i'm actually genuinely happy. i still love school, i love learning, and i have awesome friends who listen to my emotional-ness - some who even take it every day.

myers briggs

i did a short version of the myers briggs test today as a study break.

I'm a ESFP

The description:

direct their energy towards the outside world of actions and spoken words. they get things done, and get them done quickly, and they prefer doing things with and for people. they seek to life life to the full and create experiences for others as well. they enjoy solving urgent problems, such as fire-fighting or trouble shooting.

this is who i am. but this is who i'm trying to surpress.

i hate being so emotionally dependent on people. i hate having my joy come from people and their joy. i hate the fact that i want to give away a lot of love and at the same time i want that love to be received. i hate it in the end, though, because most of the time that love is not received - or it's not that important to those people.

i was talking with a friend today.. about how we're such emotional people yet we want to be able to control our emotions. in the end, though, does that not change who we are?

oh gosh this is so emo.

i want to be a kid again

i haven't been posting lately.
or responding to emails.
or responding to texts.
or phone calls.


I'm not hermitting, i assure you. I'm just really busy with school and just things that keep pounding at my head like a moth pounding on a light bulb.


i'm not stressed. just very anxious. i think i'm feeling very impatient in terms of things that i want to be overwith aren't being done and overwith. my emotions keep getting in the way of things and i like to think i'm not a very emotional person and i think very rationally, but deep down, I know i'm one of the most emotional people in my circle of friends.


i wish i could go back to being like a kid. a friend of mine just recently blogged about how innocence, child likedness, and open mindedess are all interrelated. i realized i've become really jaded.


in today's society our circles of friends, our circles of acquaintances, social networks have grown so much that it's so hard to find someone who wants to care for you as much as you want to care for them. not just in romantic relationships but in friendships as well. it's so hard to put yourself out there and hope that someone will grab on and to pull yourself back together when no one does.


i hate being emotional.

a few hours later

this is why i love my parents.

Hi, Audrey,

Life is tough?

But you can be tougher.

I understand you may have million things in your mind.

But, just take a minute,

go to a quiet place,

sit down,

empty your mind,

and think about how much mom and dad love you.

Recharge yourself and move on.

Do you want to talk? Call me or send me an email.

Love you.

Abba.



i want to go home so bad, right now.

note to self

when you have a kid and they have a midterm the next day don't try to analyze reasons why he/she did not get a job and how we can solve the problem - they're probably stressed as it is.

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stressed.