myers briggs

i did a short version of the myers briggs test today as a study break.

I'm a ESFP

The description:

direct their energy towards the outside world of actions and spoken words. they get things done, and get them done quickly, and they prefer doing things with and for people. they seek to life life to the full and create experiences for others as well. they enjoy solving urgent problems, such as fire-fighting or trouble shooting.

this is who i am. but this is who i'm trying to surpress.

i hate being so emotionally dependent on people. i hate having my joy come from people and their joy. i hate the fact that i want to give away a lot of love and at the same time i want that love to be received. i hate it in the end, though, because most of the time that love is not received - or it's not that important to those people.

i was talking with a friend today.. about how we're such emotional people yet we want to be able to control our emotions. in the end, though, does that not change who we are?

oh gosh this is so emo.