i heart law and order

Being at home having nothing to do is a great time to watch series that are old yet you never got to watch. Take law and order for example... according to tv shack, there's 417 episodes in law an order... that's not including law and order: _______ fill in the blank.

I don't know what it is... the acting sucks, the fashion is so old school
but i love the stories!

and not to metnion this man
ben stone.


i don't think he's particularly good looking... he's kind old... but i think i need to marry a superhero or something or someone who fights for justice like this guy... its just so.... 멋있어!! hehehehe


ANYWAYS

Went to pastor will and pastor joe's convocation today.
con hall is gorgeous and has so much character! For some reason.. i can only imagine myself at convocation in the pac for some reason...
but two years... and we'll be graduating.. for now, i'll enjoy congratulating those who are facing "the future" now and enjoy my time in school!!

dear future husband 1DEC2009

Dear Future Husband,

I had a dream about you yesterday. I had a dream that we were married and we opened up a used bookstore together. It was a great business with tons of people. You were kind of quiet and sat behind the cash reading a book. I would greet people and show them our collections which included a wall of national geographic magazines dated back to the very first issue.

Have you ever had those dreams where you have no such feelings prior to a dream, but the feelings within your dream carry over to your real life? Call me crazy, but i am madly in love with this mystery man.

Where are you?!?! huk...

Anyways, it's exams season. Don't forget to eat, sleep, and pray!! Unless you're from waterloo and on co-op or.... working aged? (in which case you're quite old! HAHAHA)

Wherever you are, i'm praying for you!!!

sad reality?

Today I was talking with my mom about how so many people are going into bio and wanting to go to medical school but end up so confused because they don't know what to do with their degree once they can't / decide not to go to med school.

health is an issue i'm a huge advocate for because there's so many more options out there than medical school and so many more options where you can help so many more people than if you were a doctor!

But then i was thinking about a conversation i had with someone i met at Konnect. He said that a lot of people go into architecture thinking that it's one thing, but once you get in, it's something totally different.

I'm so scared that's going to happen to me.
I'm so scared all the things i'm passionate for now won't have a job later on or there is no job.
I'm so scared that although I want to develop a mental health system for Korea and Canada, no one will listen to me, and I'll be stranded doing government work where everything is drowning in bureaucracy and moving at the speed of molasses.
I'm scared that I'll become someone who's mind become stagnant in the day to day routine of work.

I know a lady who's an accountant. She was originally in bio.
My aunt has a PhD in organic chem. She's a homemaker.
I know a pharmacist who found her job boring so she went to teaching.

I don't have anything against these people.

I just like to know my future won't take sharp turns or that I'll be bored with my degree...

i want to be an academic

I found my calling in life. Well, for now.

Today was Journal Club - an exciting and stimulating place for discussion on all the hot topics as published in the latest and most credible papers.

Being in a room full of 70 residents and orthopedic surgeons was immensely intimidating. Not only was the material zipping over my head, I didn't want to ask a stupid question in fear of stating my obvious position as a... gasp... undergrad.

But it wasn't too bad.

Aside from the AMAZING free Indian food at an ALL YOU CAN EAT buffet, plus a paid for taxi ride to the restaurant from work, the sponsors of the event were kind enough to explain to me and the two other coop students the basics of fracture healing - before the discussion even took place.

I learned a ton of stuff, but what I found really stimulating was the frequent question of "what do you guys do." I think in the realm of science and health, it's a question that encompasses economics, technology, literature, as well as practicality. It's a question that is too often lost in the literature and studies of research, but it is necessary so that we learn from each others' triumphs as well as failures.

I had given up on being a doctor because I think I lost the reason why I wanted to be one. Sure, I want to help people, but being the selfish person I am, I don't think I want to risk putting my career in the bureaucratic grasps of our medical system to help a small amount of people.

Today, I saw the beauty of research. There are endless possibilities! Giving extra doses of Vitamin D to long term care patients significantly reduces the amount of fractures by a simple fall - who knew it was so simple! Debating when to use what surgical technique in encouraging the healing of bone fractures.

All of these have people of expertise and when these people come together for "the greater good", it's truly amazing! I still don't know what exactly I want to do with my life - doctor? public health? research? all three? But i know it's in the world of academia - somewhere.