study break number...... uh..

Current Location: BMH Fishbowl
Current Activity: studying with phil for 330 midterm.. today at 11:30AM
Current Time: 3:30AM
Current Mood: very happy


This week's events.

visiting my grandpa who is very sick but still insists on cleaning the apartment without help. sigh so stubborn.


found a ton of my uncle's athlete of the year awards and tournament trophies including a couple MVPs. dayum... i wish the athletic genes had transferred to me... i think they were all given to my figure skating cousin.

in addition.. lost volleyball today in the playoff game.. sigh


sashimi at wasabi all you can eat sushi.. MMM white tuna.. SO GOOD.. but threw up every time i ate for 2 days after... not pleasant..


waiting with sarah at the hospital yesterday after her basketball knee injury. we told her to be sad so they would triage her faster but no -_- she was laughing...


not so happy now that she has to hobble all over campus... and the fact i put an "I heart AHS" balloon on her bag did not make her happy


jocelyn loves AHS though!


i'm very overwhelmed but very chill at the same time. i don't know if it's because i'm numbed by the term or i'm actually stress managing, but i don't really care.. just taking one thing at a time :)


kcf exec... to be in it or not to be in it... 20 hours a week? that's quite a bit of time....

that's what friends are for

had the worst midterm of my life. prepared for a whole week, lived at the library, and studied my butt off and i blank. cried after the midterm and called up a friend.

she is an awesome friend.

First she made me laugh by bringing me a fruit popsicle with the explanation that she was going to bring me an ice cream one but then even though we crave unhealthy stuff when we're stressed we should still eat healthy. i don't think she realizes how much sugar is in those fruity ones too...

And then she reminded me that, yea, these things will happen and in times like these you gotta shake it off and start fresh. i'll probably go back to school and try to figure out what went wrong in my studying but for this weekend, i'm going to enjoy:

• lunch with my grandpa
  
• massaging my grandpa's legs cuz he's vitamin D deficient (i feel like a crappy g.daughter cuz i'm in health and i can't help my grandpa)
• all you can eat sushi dinner (NOM NOM NOM)
• church tomorrow
• moving

Before i go, can i just say this? I LOVE MY iPHONE. it lets me do EVERYTHING, including blogging, and i am now starting to blog short snippets that make me laugh during the day. AND i don't even need to buy a camera now cuz it can take pictures too. HOW CONVENIENT

Anyways, yesterday was a KCF auction and Ruth wanted to make an apple pie. Baking is my stress reliever but I was REALLY skeptical just cuz pies are hard to make and Ruth is... a little clumsy - haha. But it turned out quite well and being at the KCF guys' house is always fun.








She took apart the paper towel holder to use the stick as a rolling pin


Sang: Hey! your lipcloss looks like ... pulls out green face makeup used for his Hulk costume last year's halloween


The finished product! I was very impressed.


Baker Ruth


Ruth and Nish - although Nish didn't do anything -_-


Ruth after finishing baking. And Will oppa after playing my iphone game. Oh so tiring.

kcf blessings (part 2)

Last year, I would never have done what I did tonight. I trekked in the snow to the gym just to watch the KCF people play basketball and cheer them on.

I haven't felt this sense of community in Waterloo for a long time.

I blogged a couple of weeks ago saying that I felt awkward around people. A friend told me something along the lines of if I see it as a problem, it will always be a problem. Another friend told me that to trust people, sometimes I just need to trust them first instead of waiting to see them be trustworthy.

In John 1:39, Jesus says "come and see," not "see and come."

Lately, I feel like i've been going and seeing, and God has been uber good in showing me many many many things.

I'm really looking forward to what else He has to show me.



Tear down the walls see the world
Is there something we have missed
Turn from ourselves
Look beyond
There is so much more than this

And I don’t need to see it to believe it
I don’t need to see it to believe it
Cause I can’t shake this
Fire burning deep inside my heart

Look to the skies hope arise
See His majesty revealed
More than this life there is love
There is hope and this is real

Cause I don’t need to see it to believe it
I don’t need to see it to believe it
Cause I can’t shake this fire burning
Deep inside my heart

This life is Yours and hope is rising
As Your glory floods our hearts
Let love tear down these walls
That all creation would
Come back to You
It’s all for You

Your Name is glorious
Glorious
Your love is changing us
Calling us
To worship in spirit and in truth
As all creation returns to You

Oh for all the sons and daughters
Who are walking in the darkness
You are calling us to lead them back to You
We will see Your spirit rising
As the lost come out of hiding
Every heart will see this hope we have in You

Cause I don’t need to see it to believe it
I don’t need to see it to believe it
Cause I can’t shake this fire burning
Deep inside my heart

This life is Yours and hope is rising
As Your glory floods our hearts
Let love tear down these walls
That all creation would
Come back to You
It’s all for You

Your Name is glorious
Glorious
Your love is changing us
Calling us
To worship in spirit and in truth
As all creation returns to You
(x2)

damn these waterloo-ans

I should have seen this coming



you know you're overexcited when you dream of it
add a very nice looking boy makes it a lot more exciting as well ;) haha
playing til 2AM does that to you

quote: do that and i will actually beat you down!

to my future husband,

Today at KCF we talked about you. We had to list qualities that we want in our ideal man. Here's what i put/currently like:

1. eyes that smile (눈 웃음)
2. christian
3. musically talented
4. athletic
5. a leader
6. "teachable heart"
7. humble
8. funny and likes to joke around
9. passionate
10. reads!
11. thoughtful

and much more!

I don't know if you have all of these qualities but if you don't, it's okay! I just hope you have 10/11 of them - haha just kidding. Okay maybe like the important ones :) i know i don't have all of these qualities too but i'm praying that with time, i'll become more like the qualities I want to see in you!

I'm really excited to meet you and although this may sound creepy, hopefully when we look back on this, it will look more sweet than creepy - haha. Hopefully youre doing well and having fun in school!!!

Audrey

skiddadle

It's cold. Freezing cold. Time to put away the flats.
There's a couple. Oh, they're hugging. Must be warm.
Did it just get colder?

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our boss is back.
it's quiet.
REAL quiet.

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enrollment was today
i got into kin 100 - anatomy
i wasn't afraid of failure; i was excited
i got home and freaked out.
i'm better now; neutral is a better word

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manuscript bible study with mackcf small group
it was fun
i missed studying the Word

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i rented out jpod from mills library @ mac
people around me were studying for midterms
i was on the couch laughing.
it's a funny book

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i finished the glass castle
it's a good book.
what's it trying to say, though?

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sniff sniff
i think i'm getting sick
i never get sick
젠장

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warm bed
down blanket
warm slippers

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tomorrow is dinner with eumee
tomorrow is 1 to 7 degrees with a frost warning
tomorrow is a new day
hooray!

don't cheat yourself

I've been having a lot of dreams lately and I don't always know what they mean (like the boot one), but I think it means I have a lot on my mind (고민 is the perfect word).

Yesterday's KCF was pretty awesome, humbling, fun - i needed it. Not that I've had a tough week or anything but I think living on my own, I'm getting a lot more time to think about myself and God, which can be a good and a bad thing.

KCF had bible study and we studied the chapter that says this:

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

Three things here.

1. Do not worry about my life. I had a dream last night where Dolly was going to her KIN100 class and I had a huge irresistable urge to go as well (I really want to take this class!) I was in the class and it was a great class but I woke up and panicked because lately, I haven't done so great in school. And then this got me to think about my whole med school dilemma again and it was a mess of panic in my mind.

2. But then I prayed about it and I was pretty much suddenly calmed as if someone was telling me that if I rely on Him, He'll provide because we're that much more important to Him than birds and birds don't even have to prepare food or whatever. Not that I can just sit back and laze away, but that if I do try my hardest (I don't think I have yet to be 100% honest), He will provide.

3. I've never really enjoyed art. I am trying because its something that's so dear to my brother's and my friends' hearts. It's something I feel like I have to understand but apparently it's something to "feel" in the words of a friend. I saw Salvador Dali's clock painting in grade 6 and didn't really like it. It was a little too... different for me.

I saw it this morning and was really sad. It's October already and I have accomplished a lot of my goals, but I feel like I cheated myself with simple goals that I didn't really have to work for. Time is slipping away, and I really want to change so that I can push myself.