home

I went home last weekend and to be honest, it was a little stressful.

It was a combination of:

• cousins over from the states
• many errands to do
• presentation due on tuesday when i took monday off

and then there was the aspect that I wanted to spend time with family but I had so little time.

I've realized that home is a lot more special to me than I thought. In waterloo, I can come home for a relatively low cost with relatively no time wasted. It's close enough where a weekend is enough time to do whatever I want at home and go back to school late at night.

In Ottawa, however, a trip home takes half a day on Friday and half a day on Sunday. The ticket is $110 round trip and if your bus happens to break down and greyhound refuses to bring a new bus and you have to wait 2.5 hours for a tow truck... yea. doesn't seem worth it. But the moment I see my mom and dad, I have an urge to cry or get really excited to the point my voice shakes and sounds like I'm going to cry.


I have a friend who hails from a different province and is constantly away from home. I give her mad props. I have a couple of friends who's family is all the way in hong kong. I have no idea how they do it.

My conclusion: I cannot live more than 2 hours from home.

the right time

it's funny how it's only until after you get out of a storm, you realize how thankful you are for each tiny piece of shelter that kept you dry for a few more seconds.

thank you to my shelters :)

dolly - for pulling my hand when i was super down and for encouraging me by going "come on man, almost there, i KNOW you can do it" or something along those lines
lil - for being home this week. it's really nice to see your face and smiles!
ug - for being awake at the wee hours of the morning and making me feel less lonely - even though we never really studied together, the fact that you were working (cough er.. maybe reading) away in the next room was always comforting
angela - for being there to call after exams and being my Korean go to person haha that sounds funny but you don't know how refreshing it is to be able to talk in korean sometimes
alice - for struggling with me in studying and for your super long e-mail that i still have to reply
jane - for sending me random "화이팅!" messages on msn - i needed those :)
jenny - for sending me your text last night while i was studying saying that you missed me and couldn't wait to see me. It made the end even sweeter!
pastor will - for emailing me encouraging words at my most difficult time - how did you know!


there are tons more people to thank, but i mainly thanked those who are going to read this :)

Thank you, you've made these exams just a little more bearable

Burnt Out

Like burnt toast - Kogepan.

















I know I said I love studying, but now that I've finished exams for my favourite courses (biochem and stats), I feel like I have no more motivation to study.

Microbio is a killer... like pseudomonads...

i wish i could be like flagellated bacteria that move in accordance to chemical gradients (chemotaxis) by mechanism of CheA sensor kinase and MCPs being methylated by CheR or the CheZ that dephosphorylates CheYP which controls flagellar movement

I wish the world was as simple as flagellar movement - proton motive force through the mot proteins driving the rotation of the MS and the C rings.

I want to go home.
To my warm bed (actually my bed here isnt bad).
To where the air doesn't smell like manure (which was layed out today i think).
To where my kitchen is spick and span.
To where I can see my friends who I feel like I haven't seen in a million years.
To where I can watch dramas and not have to worry about whether or not i'm going to remember if certain bacteria are gram positive, gram negative, alpha, beta, or gamma proteobacteria.

I want to go home.

Home sweet home