i did a short version of the myers briggs test today as a study break.
I'm a ESFP
The description:
direct their energy towards the outside world of actions and spoken words. they get things done, and get them done quickly, and they prefer doing things with and for people. they seek to life life to the full and create experiences for others as well. they enjoy solving urgent problems, such as fire-fighting or trouble shooting.
this is who i am. but this is who i'm trying to surpress.
i hate being so emotionally dependent on people. i hate having my joy come from people and their joy. i hate the fact that i want to give away a lot of love and at the same time i want that love to be received. i hate it in the end, though, because most of the time that love is not received - or it's not that important to those people.
i was talking with a friend today.. about how we're such emotional people yet we want to be able to control our emotions. in the end, though, does that not change who we are?
oh gosh this is so emo.
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March 8, 2010
January 12, 2010
is this normal?
I called out a friend today that i haven't seen in forever (well technically she called me) and i was really excited to meet her up to 10 minutes before when i panicked.
crap.
i haven't seen this friend in a year. what if it's really awkward? what if there's tons of silences? i suck at one on one conversations!
i think i get it from my dad. i feel really socially awkward when i'm with someone by ourselves. i prefer to watch a movie in those situations or cook or play a game.
lately, even in big groups, i find myself just feeling awkward. i have no idea if im actually being awkward or not, but i'm really beginning to not like talking. there's probably only 5 people i can talk to one on one without feeling awkward.
take for instance at the kcf 1st meeting. sure, i didn't know that many people but even among the people i've known and i'm normally comfortable around, i didnt really say much. i used to be super energetic in large groups, but these days, i just feel like watching - i do like people watching.
was i always like this? or is this a "growth process"?
this time, i called out a friend who i know i feel awkward with. bah humbug
a photo outside my room at sunset
1. didn't know the sun set so fast - 2 min after this photo there was no colour
2. good thing there was no one home in those houses cuz i'd feel like a major creeper
3. winter makes me happy
crap.
i haven't seen this friend in a year. what if it's really awkward? what if there's tons of silences? i suck at one on one conversations!
i think i get it from my dad. i feel really socially awkward when i'm with someone by ourselves. i prefer to watch a movie in those situations or cook or play a game.
lately, even in big groups, i find myself just feeling awkward. i have no idea if im actually being awkward or not, but i'm really beginning to not like talking. there's probably only 5 people i can talk to one on one without feeling awkward.
take for instance at the kcf 1st meeting. sure, i didn't know that many people but even among the people i've known and i'm normally comfortable around, i didnt really say much. i used to be super energetic in large groups, but these days, i just feel like watching - i do like people watching.
was i always like this? or is this a "growth process"?
this time, i called out a friend who i know i feel awkward with. bah humbug
a photo outside my room at sunset
1. didn't know the sun set so fast - 2 min after this photo there was no colour
2. good thing there was no one home in those houses cuz i'd feel like a major creeper
3. winter makes me happy
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