let's work out!

So i've been going to the gym consistently for the past 6 weeks. I have to say i'm actually pretty impressed with myself. I never would have thought that i actually LIKED going to the gym. There's been like one or two days in the whole 6 weeks that I've been like OMG i can't go! But other than that, i've been going every other day or 4 times a week. I can see results which I think is motivating me to go even more.

a friend wrote on her blog today that she loves the feeling of coming OUT of working out but hates the pre-session. THis is mainly written for her as an encouragement.

My fitness tester today said that working out happens in phases.

Phase 1: Foundation
Just get your butt to the gym. You might not see results in this section so don't even weigh yourself

I'm still in this stage but I think it's working so far. I'm getting in the habit of going to the gym - it's almost second nature to me and i feel like crap if i don't go.

So to my friend - just hang in there my dear! And maybe when you've used up all your classes, your body needs a change in exercise!

My goal until september - be comfortable in my own body, be able to run up to the top floor of MC without dying on the way, be a better eater.

My long term goal? Look like them: (teehee)

jars of clutter

So i'm back to that state.
Where i have so much on my mind but I don't know half of what is going on in my mind.

I think I thought that being at home, it'd be easier to open up and to share and to find what's been buried in my heart that's causing me so much grief.

But i went out with one of my good friends yesterday and I just sat there. I didn't know what to say or how to start and I still don't know what I would say if she were right here.

January's almost over and I'm realizing that 8 months isn't as long as I thought it would be.

Meeting up with Pastor Joe on tuesday so hopefully that's a good starting point...

the time of our lives

had dinner with the unit 502 girls + some extras =P

it was a really strange but good feeling.

back in the day, we'd go to someone's family's house and eat the food made by the mom, play some games, have sleep overs.

even though i've been living on my own for a long time, to be at dolly's cousin's condo and exchanging secret santa gifts, making food, having fun... it was all sort of surreal. Maybe it's because it was in Toronto, but the fact that we're at an age where we are now hostesses of parties... or we get together and WE are the ones cooking; all of that was so surreal and weird.

But unlike the usual freak out that I have about getting old, it was nice. It was a reminder that you know what? we're 22 soon but that's no where near old. this is the time of our lives where we're not bound by families whether it be parents, husbands or kids.. so we just have to enjoy it!

On a sadder note, just heard about the 40 car pile-up north of orillia. a 22 year old girl was killed and that just reminded me of just how young we are. If we're too young to die, then we're still young. Which means... i shouldn't be feeling old for a VERY long time (maybe til i'm 80)

trying a new language

i had a friend tell me that speaking languages she's not comfortable in is kind of daunting and scary but that she's gonna take a risk and take a class where she's forced to do just that.

we had our praise team potluck today and aside from the fact that i'm not eating dinner because i'm just too full, i think i came away with a greater excitement to be on praise team. but ultimately, I think i came away with the desire to try something new.

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next month, i'm going to try to play keys. which is a huge step for me because improvising is something totally non nature to me. even though i'm done piano, it's all things i was TOLD to do. trying to make my own music.. that's... haha yes

mindless?

this week was a whirlwind at work and I don't even remember half of it. Tons of office politics and learning when's the right time to ask questions or just wait for people to cool down from being mad at other people. overall though apparently i'm efficient, quick to learn, and integrate well in the team.

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popcorn chicken at teashop 168 is... AMAZING

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rekindling old friendships is SUCH a good feeling

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today had lots of potential camera moments. i need a second job so i can buy myself some stuff -_-

work

Work has been SO rewarding. Not only do I love my team and what palliative care IS, but I think I've found my niche. Research is SO exciting and to be part of a team that takes problems from the clinical perspective and does research on it to make things more applicable... now THAT is real research.

One of the studies I'm working on is a prognosis study.
Prognosis = estimation of how long someone has to live
Basically... it's not accurate at all and I'm going to be presenting that at a conference in april. Quite excited!

And last week I got to translate for a korean patient because the Korean translator wasn't available. HOW REWARDING to be able to understand both sides and facilitate communication.

Finding out that I'm working with a family friend was pretty cool too.

Definitely loving it so far. Hopefully it's this exciting for the next 8 months! And hopefully (cross fingers) I'll be able to integrate after I graduate :D

2011 Resolutions

• go to the gym more (check! been going every other day. This week going to attempt going every day. But definitely PAYING for a membership motivates me to use it)
• rest more. like REAL resting. Haven't been really good at it to admit but this past weekend didn't go out as much because I KNEW i would regret it if i did
• read the bible every day. Already failed at this despite having daily verses sent to my phone

gonna narrow it down to that for now.

Faithful

At the comment of a friend, I've decided to get off my lazy butt and start blogging again. I'm gonna write a couple entries since some of them are saved and just not published. But SO much has happened in the last two weeks that I don't know what to make of it and whether I'm stressed or not about it all. But I'm learning to take each day as God gives it to me and to trust that He's got it all covered :)

Chris Tomlin has a new album that I now have thanks to a different friend. One of the songs, I've been listening to on repeat because it SO speaks to what i'm going through right now and it's a HUGE encouragement.




Faithful, forever You are faithful
Father to the fatherless
You uphold the one who feels forsaken
You are faithful, God

Faithful, forever You are faithful
Lover of the wounded heart
You defend the poor and the forgotten
You are faithful, God

And I will sing to the maker of Heaven and Earth
God, You reign forever and Your will endure
Faithful and true is the name of the Lord
You are faithful, God

Faithful, forever You are faithful
Shelter for the fragile soul
You lift us up, You hold us all together
You are faithful, God

You are there in every season of my soul
You are there, You're the anchor that will hold
You are there, in the valley of the shadows
You are faithful, God