lifespan development

Im studying for my lifespan development course. Midterm is on monday and main topic is fertilization and early stages of pregnancy.

"85-90% of aneuploidies arise from the maternal side. A strong effect of maternal age has been noted where risk increases significantly at 33-40, 40 having a faster increase."

I never thought 33 was really old but I guess I can understand the Korean emphasis on getting married so quickly. And being a health person and someone who learns these kinds of things, I feel like its almost my responsibility to my future kids to get married early and have kids. I think 4 kids is out of the question unless i want to be constantly on maternity leave - which i dont. And im realizing more and more how independent i like to be and how i actually dont want to get married that quickly (although im tres excited for when it will happen teehee).

SIGH why?!?!

This course saddens me.

kcf blessings (part 2)

Last year, I would never have done what I did tonight. I trekked in the snow to the gym just to watch the KCF people play basketball and cheer them on.

I haven't felt this sense of community in Waterloo for a long time.

I blogged a couple of weeks ago saying that I felt awkward around people. A friend told me something along the lines of if I see it as a problem, it will always be a problem. Another friend told me that to trust people, sometimes I just need to trust them first instead of waiting to see them be trustworthy.

In John 1:39, Jesus says "come and see," not "see and come."

Lately, I feel like i've been going and seeing, and God has been uber good in showing me many many many things.

I'm really looking forward to what else He has to show me.



Tear down the walls see the world
Is there something we have missed
Turn from ourselves
Look beyond
There is so much more than this

And I don’t need to see it to believe it
I don’t need to see it to believe it
Cause I can’t shake this
Fire burning deep inside my heart

Look to the skies hope arise
See His majesty revealed
More than this life there is love
There is hope and this is real

Cause I don’t need to see it to believe it
I don’t need to see it to believe it
Cause I can’t shake this fire burning
Deep inside my heart

This life is Yours and hope is rising
As Your glory floods our hearts
Let love tear down these walls
That all creation would
Come back to You
It’s all for You

Your Name is glorious
Glorious
Your love is changing us
Calling us
To worship in spirit and in truth
As all creation returns to You

Oh for all the sons and daughters
Who are walking in the darkness
You are calling us to lead them back to You
We will see Your spirit rising
As the lost come out of hiding
Every heart will see this hope we have in You

Cause I don’t need to see it to believe it
I don’t need to see it to believe it
Cause I can’t shake this fire burning
Deep inside my heart

This life is Yours and hope is rising
As Your glory floods our hearts
Let love tear down these walls
That all creation would
Come back to You
It’s all for You

Your Name is glorious
Glorious
Your love is changing us
Calling us
To worship in spirit and in truth
As all creation returns to You
(x2)

study break: environmental health

On the 8th floor of DP, studying oh so hard for my environmental health exam today


Look outside to see SUCH nice weather... although the windows do need to be washed.


An hour later, look outside and it's a blizzard.


Four key environmental concerns: air pollution, toxic chemicals, climate change, built environment.

explanatory relevance

Had my research design methods midterm yesterday. Found this in the textbook - hehe. I thought it was quite funny. Talking about the importance of explanatory relevance or logical reasoning when developing theories.

freddy (heart)

he was bought by my mother and has been there for me since second year - yes he's survived since then.

sabbatical

I know I haven't been too great with the blogging. I reached a point where I had too many ideas and not enough time to write a blog entry for each one. Sadly, I didn't jot down these ideas and with my brain, I obviously don't remember what they were. Now, i'm at a blogger's block and I have no ideas. Plus, I have three midterms this week with another one on monday and a couple of assignments that I need to do.

Hooray for school. Seriously :)


PS. the comic above was drawn by a friend from high school.
check out his webcomic here.

5 second rule redefined

Source: Geekologie

The Illustrated Life by Laura Lee

study break 2 - stockholm

I finally got some time to going back and watching some TED videos. Except this time, I didnt really get that much out of TED. Instead, there was an ad at the end of one of the TED videos for IBM.



It was talking about how there is so much pollution being caused by traffic jams that they felt they had to do something. So they set up cameras at the 19 main entrances of the city and started charging a congestion fee. This, also, was all voted by the people.

The result? hehe you have to watch it to find out but its pretty amazing what a couple of high tech cameras (which technology we already have) can do for the environment.

Stockholm actually has a couple of really interesting things that they do. Ive actually never really read much about the city or really had any interest IN learning about them. But then I found some pretty cool things about Stockholm:

• it's built on 14 islands aka "Venice of the North"
  
• they have a public transit system that's linked throughout the country and uses one ticket system for the entire transit system
• the subway system is also "the world's longest art gallery"
  
• was ranked most innovative European city in 2006
• "top ten honest cities", "greenest" and "most livable city" by Reader's digest
• they also have no heavy industries which probably helps with the green part
  

Man.. I'd love to live here. They're also the people behind the "piano stairs"



What about their healthcare?

• one of the top systems
  
• public system (98% = gov't funded) with some fees applied for physicians
• governed by 21 county councils where 90% of their responsibility is in health care
• travel costs to clinic/hospital are all reimbursed by the state
• maximum wait: 3 days for physician, 14 days for dietician, 10 days for specialists

One more place for me to travel!

damn these waterloo-ans

I should have seen this coming



you know you're overexcited when you dream of it
add a very nice looking boy makes it a lot more exciting as well ;) haha
playing til 2AM does that to you

quote: do that and i will actually beat you down!

i am...

officially sick of peanut butter sandwiches.

adventure of the day

so my friend has a project going on to take a photo a day (most of them have been about food so far, but hey! it's a photo a day). i consider myself to have barely any artistic talent so that wouldn't work for me.

i realized yesterday that something exciting usually happens everyday and my friends and i always forget about it. so i've decided that every day i will post an adventure!

it's too early in the morning to have had an adventure so i will tell one of yesterday!

binal and i had lunch and then went to look for sarah who had said she was studying in her residence. jaywalked across the street when binal said that i would kill her. I said she wouldn't die of jaywalking with me - knock on wood. Looked around for wood - oh a tree! knock on wood! people stare at me -_-

went to the wrong entrance of wilmot court, walked around, found ourselves in the middle of the courtyard and unable to find the right entrance. binal had the bright idea of finding her by yelling her name. SARAH!!! SARAH!!!! oh dear. eventually found the right entrance but binal didn't know her room number to buzz. it's either **4 or **5 and proceeds to press both of the buttons. someone answers; we answer with SARAH!! the door opens.

we run down and see sarah coming down the hall. she asks us with a (-_-) expression if we were yelling her name. giggle giggle from us. we ask her if she opened the door for us; she says no. uh oh. what room are you again? **7

*palmface

for memory sake...

first study break of winter 2010 (the first of many)

is this normal?

I called out a friend today that i haven't seen in forever (well technically she called me) and i was really excited to meet her up to 10 minutes before when i panicked.

crap.

i haven't seen this friend in a year. what if it's really awkward? what if there's tons of silences? i suck at one on one conversations!

i think i get it from my dad. i feel really socially awkward when i'm with someone by ourselves. i prefer to watch a movie in those situations or cook or play a game.

lately, even in big groups, i find myself just feeling awkward. i have no idea if im actually being awkward or not, but i'm really beginning to not like talking. there's probably only 5 people i can talk to one on one without feeling awkward.

take for instance at the kcf 1st meeting. sure, i didn't know that many people but even among the people i've known and i'm normally comfortable around, i didnt really say much. i used to be super energetic in large groups, but these days, i just feel like watching - i do like people watching.

was i always like this? or is this a "growth process"?





this time, i called out a friend who i know i feel awkward with. bah humbug



a photo outside my room at sunset
1. didn't know the sun set so fast - 2 min after this photo there was no colour
2. good thing there was no one home in those houses cuz i'd feel like a major creeper
3. winter makes me happy

to do

If any of you remember, I used to have a huge list of things to do before I die on my window in my bedroom. The list started off small and then it grew to take up the whole window. Sadly, we're selling our house and for the viewings, I had to erase that gigantic list. Being the silly person I am, I didn't write it down.

I guess it's a fresh start. Some of the things I wanted when I was grade 7 I've probably done or don't know if i want to do anymore. I think I know a lot more about myself to know what I really want to do before I die. So without further ado!

climb the CN tower • go to the capital city of every country • live in Korea for a year • go on missions for a year • go really up north to see the Northern Lights • see a live world cup game at the stadium • write/publish a paper • watch an eclipse • look through a massive telescope • write a story • shave a really fluffy cat • lassoo a cow • walk behind a waterfall • own a bedroom with a bay window • look good in skinny jeans haha • drive on the autoban • run a marathon • paint a picture i'm proud of • eat at one of those sushi places with the conveyor belt • be part of a wedding party • make a time capsule with s.o • be lifted by balloons • watch a drive-in movie • fall in love and get married • skate on the Rideau • work as a character at an amusement park for a day • grant a sick kid's wish • bungee jump • learn to play another concerto • ride an elephant • watch all the great musicals (Chicago, Wicked, Jersey Boys, Hairspray, etc.) • play in a jazz group • go on a secret mission • create a tradition • revisit Victoria • open a business • vlog • meet a talking parrot • hug the hugging lady in india • build a dream house with a dream hubby • carve a boat • make a family recipe • make a short movie

And i know this isn't the end.

first week

The first week of school has been....

• crazy
• hectic
• disorganized
• exciting
• interesting
• fun
• happy
• lonely
• eventful
• full of learning
• keener-ing
• already growing
• reflective

so much has happened in the first week and i LOVE that.
definitely looking forward to the next 4 months.


One thing i hate though...
i'll be so glad after tomorrow when my work term report is GONE GONE GONE
pass or fail credits give me no motivation

paper heart

So I've been wanting to watch this for a really long time. It's supposed to be a documentary on how a girl (comedian Charlyne Yi) doesn't believe in love and goes around the states to ask people what love is to them.

I didn't like it.

First of all, I found out the relationship is fake which ... I feel like I was cheated! Like a boy playing with my emotions -_- HAHA

Secondly, a lot of the things were obvious and I was like... they need a movie to tell me that?
a. young love doens't work out for some people
b. love has hormones and bodily chemicals associated with it, but it's not just about the biochemistry

Lastly, the ending sucked. It was lame. No... it was worse than lame. Dare I say it was stupid?

Sure, there were cute parts and some of the couples were adorable,
but if you can help it, don't watch it.

getting rid of the legalistic christian in me

There's a lot of good things about being brought up in a Christian family and then there are a couple of bad things as well. One of those things being the mentality I was brought up with.

I was always taught to do good and not to sin and I guess that's a good place to start with kids, but I feel like the whole relationship with God part was left out way too long. If my grade 6 sunday school teacher didn't teach us about how God loves us and to erase our sins forever, He sent Jesus to die on the cross for us, then I feel like I'd be really lost and confused in my faith and in life.

Even now, I feel like a lot of my Christian walk has been in that mentality of doing "what a christian should do." I get upset at myself for not faithfully waking up at the same time to read the bible and pray or for not going to church in Waterloo. Although I these are things that I want to do to become closer to God, I know the reason i'm getting mad at myself isn't the right one (i don't even know if that makes sense)

I was reading luke 6 this morning (courtesy of my mom's "read the bible in a year excel spreadsheet) and it was talking about how the religious leaders / Pharisees were trying to find a reason to accuse Jesus of something. Jesus knew what they were thinking of doing and in response, he healed a man. He healed this man on the Sabbath (a day where you're not supposed to do any work).

I've read this story a million times and I've studied it in manuscript but today, when I read it, I kind of felt really frustrated. Here in front of them is THE Jesus, the guy who saves humanity and all they can do is try to find something he does wrong. You'd think that by this time - seeing that He hasn't done wrong, but is doing good stuff - that they'd figure, hey maybe we should follow this guy.

I'm the same.

Sometimes, I'll catch myself during a sermon, prayer, or just talking, "oh.. they should have said this instead of that." I find myself looking at the details in what the person is saying instead of what the person is saying (if you know what i mean?) That frustrates me. It frustrates me how I used to be told to change all my 'he's to "Hes". It frustrates me how some people told me not to chew on the bread at communion because it's like crucifying Jesus' body again and again.

I don't know what I'm trying to get at here - haha. I still dont' even think i know really know how to blog.

But here i am, this is me :)

savour

I know people always talk about self improvement and making things better.

These days, I'm really learning how to savour the moment and enjoy the process of change as it happens.
Whether it be in changes in school, friendships, family relationships, or my walk with God, I'm learning to slow down and not be so hasty to get to the end result.





ps. i put a picture of yookgaejang because i LOVE savouring yookgaejang.. it's one of the few foods i eat nice and slow as to savour every bite MMMMMMMMMMMM

excess energy

I didn't realize how much energy i use until today.
From left to right -
night light (yes, I'm scared of the dark)
secondary lamp (because my room is too dark)
laptop charger (because its life is only 30 min)
iphone charger
alarm clock
desk lamp

Question - does having something plugged in but not on still use energy?

New new year's resolution - use less energy.

the hopeless romantic in me squeals

anatomy is an expensive course

Aging: $0.00
Environmental Health: $0.00
Statistics: $20.84
Research Methods: $116 (will be sharing with a friend)
Anatomy: $184.50



On another note, our class watched a video talking about the "Gift of Death" or how people donate their bodies to science. Personally, I'd rather use my body and its organs to save lives through donation, but I guess if that wasn't an option I'd donate it to science. I wonder, though, if you can choose which part of science to donate it to. I don't know if I'd like my body in finding evidence for evolution because it's simply something I don't believe in.

Either way, I have no use for this body once I go - might as well let other people poke and prod it for their benefit while I'm partying up there :)

new room, new start

Greetings!

I know I've sucked at blogging during the holidays but I do plan to make up for it in the new year 2010. Firstly, I've moved in (yay) to the new residence and it's really nice. The bathroom is a little dingy but i Love my room and wouldn't mind studying tons in here.


My desk. It's a little small for my liking but I think that will really force me to study WITHOUT my laptop teehee.


The view from my room. The area is all townhouses and it's really pretty!


My bed ^^ It's a single but my 이불 is for a queen sized bed. It's also made up of 2 blankets sewed together to make it super heavy and super warm.


My dresser top with all my face / washing stuff. Nothing particularly interesting

I'll upload more photos when I take them.

Blogspot needs to come up with a multiple photo upload function

I HAVE DC++ whoot. Need a movie? Let me know :)