jump?

If it is uncertain whether or not someone will be there to catch you,

do you jump?

If you know that even if someone catches you, you'll get bruised,

do you jump?

But if you know that if you never jump, you'll never fly,

do you jump?

overheard at downtown hamilton

a woman walks out of a building, pushing a baby, crying, saying "I can't believe i spent all my money"

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a man walks by yelling on his phone that he's going to smack her [the girl on the phone] if she doesn't listen to him. He proceeds to say that she never listens and always whines

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19 people asked strangers for a cigarette and got one along with a light.

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a woman yells out that she hates christmas

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two teenage girls walk by, yelling profanities about their father who had just yelled at them this close to their face [puts palm right near face]

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This all happened in a matter of 20 minutes as I was waiting for the bus to go home.

I originally thought 'oh dear.. hamilton... it's always like this'. But then i thought, what if I just dont' pay attention to these kinds of things in Toronto?

Someone on the bus last week was talking about how there's so many crazies in Toronto. He was from some small town and he was talking about how the TTC's full of homeless people. I thought to myself, 'dude.. have you REALLY been on the TTC? sounds like you haven't. At least we don't have crazies like Hamilton'.

And then I thought about it more... we do have crazies.

I only notice them once in a while, but is that just because I don't pay attention?
Why is it that when I'm not in a city that's my own, I look around more at the people?
Why is it that when I'm in a city that has a reputation for being ghetto, I get all shifty and suspiscious?


Fact to consider: I've heard more people say thank you on the Hamilton bus than in Toronto.

stale bread

I apologize - I haven't been blogging properly lately. I feel like I have nothing significant to write. A lot of things have been going on in my life - family, work, church, clubs, personal life. It feels like I'm trapped in a vortex and although I love the thrill of it, I feel a little lost. I realize how important it is to step out of your life sometimes and just look.

December's already here; 2010 is almost here. It's a little cliche but I think this is one of the first years I've been thinking hard about the past year.

3 Things I Accomplished
1. Went out and became more involved in my community/school
2. Read a lot more books than I've read in a while
3. Definitely spent a lot more time with close friends

3 Things I Learned About Myself
1. I don't want a clingy boy. I wouldn't mind an arranged marriage
2. I needs lists to motivate myself to do things; I'm obsessed with organizers
3. I definitely don't spend enough time for my friends

3 Things I Would Have Done Differently
1. Make a lot more new friends
2. Take care of my body/health a lot more
3. Spend more time with grandparents

3 Milestones
1. Breakup with Dennis
2. Small groups
3. This Blog

3 Hardest Times
1. Breakup with Dennis
2. December
3. Summer School Exam Time

3 Ways I'm Different from Last Year
1. I know a lot more about what I like / don't like
2. I am more confident in myself
3. I am refreshed in Christ

3 Things I'm Grateful For
1. Small Groups
2. Blogs / Emails with Friends
3. My Program is 5 years, not 4

my iron giant

i LOVE this movie.

right now, i'm feeling...
not overwhelmed but in awe at how much I'm going to have to do for the next term
it's a little daunting, i must admit
i feel like i'm watching a madwoman sign up for all these things
that madwoman is your's truly
i feel like the things i have to do is as big as the iron giant




yet i love that feeling of being overwhelmed
to the point where you have to stop, re-prioritize and then execute with maximum efficiency.




미쳤구만

my christmas wishlist

This is mainly for my parents if they were to stumble by chance across my blog that they might see this and it might give them ideas *hint hint* har har

1. iphone

The more and more I read about it (i've read the user's manual already), the more I really want it. I love how everything is in one place and it's so... PRACTICAL... a data phone would be ideal but not necessary *dreamy sigh*

2. netbook

samsung just came out with a really NICE netbook (I believe they came out with a laptop too) which i would love to take to class instead of my current laptop which has the battery life of 30 minutes *shakes fist*

3. flipHD

I saw this on a stillmotion video - one of the brides got it from her bridesmaid as a gift. Seeing how my current camcorder can't transfer to the computer, this would be a fun gift but slightly expensive and probably unnecessary...




usually, i'd buy these for myself.... but see my previous post T_T
oh the sad life of a student

where did the ________ go???

Time
Crap! It's already December 10th. I've done a lot this past term, but still - this term year has gone by crazy quickly.

Goals I accomplished:
- read 3 books
- go to Urbana (well not technically but it's all paid for)
- take initiative at work

Goals I still have time to accomplish:
- study the book of james
- watch 10 good movies (currently at 4)
- organize my iTunes
- go to 1 festival in toronto

Goals I need to reassess/failed
- get through my mcat book on my own (I think I need to make a more intense plan for this one)
- finish my work term report before december (HAH - more like before january now)

Money
I checked my bank account last night and I officially don't have enough to pay my tuition and residence fees. I love my textbooks but I'm thinking of selling them. I don't get OSAP. I'm desperately looking for scholarships or grants I can get. Apparently you can't get the textbook grant if you don't have OSAP. Damn money.

thank you and sorry

Is it just me, or has the phrase "thank you" and the word "sorry" lost all their meanings?
I feel like we over use the words.
But then if we don't say them, we're impolite?
But then isn't it worse to say it and the other person clearly knows that you're just saying it for the sake of saying it?

a little early...

but i LOVE this song and i think frank sinatra has a really classy voice

where is my kim yeo jun?

I seriously love this drama...
Oh 김여준 if only you werent a character and instead of her you were in love with me....

what's your name?

Audrey = noble strength
김진아 = truly beautiful

It's hard to live up to one's name eh?


What does your name mean?

changing the last name

I know i've been blogging a lot about weddings and marriage, but trust! It's not a normal thing for me to be thinking about marriage this detailed.

I was in the office today and my boss had just gotten off the phone with a business partner who was complaining about the process of changing her last name after a divorce. Our boss then proceeded to say, "ladies, forget about changing your last name - it takes too much time and energy and then if you end up getting divorced, you have to do it again!" Harsh - i know.

And then on the bus, I overheard this lady saying how she didn't realize how many things she had to change her name for - licenses, credit cards, insurance, etc.

I did some research and you have to file for a change request within 90 days for it to be free, orelse it's 25 dollars (which isn't bad). If you want to change your name not for marriage purposes but just because, it's 137 dollars. And then there's those people who combine names, which i think would be really weird for Korean last names

i'm not too keen on changing my last name - I like Kim.

Maybe I'll convince my husband to change HIS last name....

or maybe we can make up our own last name...

dear future husband 1DEC2009

Dear Future Husband,

I had a dream about you yesterday. I had a dream that we were married and we opened up a used bookstore together. It was a great business with tons of people. You were kind of quiet and sat behind the cash reading a book. I would greet people and show them our collections which included a wall of national geographic magazines dated back to the very first issue.

Have you ever had those dreams where you have no such feelings prior to a dream, but the feelings within your dream carry over to your real life? Call me crazy, but i am madly in love with this mystery man.

Where are you?!?! huk...

Anyways, it's exams season. Don't forget to eat, sleep, and pray!! Unless you're from waterloo and on co-op or.... working aged? (in which case you're quite old! HAHAHA)

Wherever you are, i'm praying for you!!!

study tips: food

I found my newest favourite blog! It's called the study skills blog and i'm so pumped to start trying them out. Sadly, i'm not in school right now but since some friends are starting exams, i thought i'd share! There's too much to share in one sitting, but since everyone seems to eat junk food during exams I thought i'd share what you should be eating.

1. Having trouble sleeping? Eat cheese
2. omega 3 fatty acids (especially fish)
3. peanuts! They have vitamin b, antioxidants, folate AND they have no cholesterol!
4. Strawberries - contain fisetin which helps with remembering what you've studied
5. Blueberries - increase learning capacity and motor skills
6. Berries in general! have antioxidants that are not only good for your body but for your brain as well! AND they boost your immune system so you wont get sick and feel crappy while studying!
   
7. Moderate doses of chocolate (dark chocolate = boosts brain function; milk = improve visual and verbal memory)
8. Feeling sluggish / slow? DRINK WATER! (6-8 cups a day ^^) or grape juice does the same effect!
   
9. Sage - improves neurotransmitter levels
10. Curry - helps to remove plaque in the brain
11. Apples! they help to awaken your brain and they taste delicious!!!

I realized I stopped referencing my facts and i'm too lazy to go back to find them, but all of it is from studyskillsblog. It's a pretty cool site!!