kaput

what do you do with a passion that's kind of died?
something that takes so much energy to even think about.
you used to have a passion for this, but you're just sick and tired of it.
what do you do?

superbowl commercial

cutest kid ever

sit at the table

I had a friend send me this TED video on Why we have too few women leaders. It's SUCH an encouraging and empowering video to not just women but people who doubt their own capability and think they don't really have leadership capacity.

let's work out!

So i've been going to the gym consistently for the past 6 weeks. I have to say i'm actually pretty impressed with myself. I never would have thought that i actually LIKED going to the gym. There's been like one or two days in the whole 6 weeks that I've been like OMG i can't go! But other than that, i've been going every other day or 4 times a week. I can see results which I think is motivating me to go even more.

a friend wrote on her blog today that she loves the feeling of coming OUT of working out but hates the pre-session. THis is mainly written for her as an encouragement.

My fitness tester today said that working out happens in phases.

Phase 1: Foundation
Just get your butt to the gym. You might not see results in this section so don't even weigh yourself

I'm still in this stage but I think it's working so far. I'm getting in the habit of going to the gym - it's almost second nature to me and i feel like crap if i don't go.

So to my friend - just hang in there my dear! And maybe when you've used up all your classes, your body needs a change in exercise!

My goal until september - be comfortable in my own body, be able to run up to the top floor of MC without dying on the way, be a better eater.

My long term goal? Look like them: (teehee)

jars of clutter

So i'm back to that state.
Where i have so much on my mind but I don't know half of what is going on in my mind.

I think I thought that being at home, it'd be easier to open up and to share and to find what's been buried in my heart that's causing me so much grief.

But i went out with one of my good friends yesterday and I just sat there. I didn't know what to say or how to start and I still don't know what I would say if she were right here.

January's almost over and I'm realizing that 8 months isn't as long as I thought it would be.

Meeting up with Pastor Joe on tuesday so hopefully that's a good starting point...