jump?

If it is uncertain whether or not someone will be there to catch you,

do you jump?

If you know that even if someone catches you, you'll get bruised,

do you jump?

But if you know that if you never jump, you'll never fly,

do you jump?

overheard at downtown hamilton

a woman walks out of a building, pushing a baby, crying, saying "I can't believe i spent all my money"

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a man walks by yelling on his phone that he's going to smack her [the girl on the phone] if she doesn't listen to him. He proceeds to say that she never listens and always whines

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19 people asked strangers for a cigarette and got one along with a light.

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a woman yells out that she hates christmas

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two teenage girls walk by, yelling profanities about their father who had just yelled at them this close to their face [puts palm right near face]

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This all happened in a matter of 20 minutes as I was waiting for the bus to go home.

I originally thought 'oh dear.. hamilton... it's always like this'. But then i thought, what if I just dont' pay attention to these kinds of things in Toronto?

Someone on the bus last week was talking about how there's so many crazies in Toronto. He was from some small town and he was talking about how the TTC's full of homeless people. I thought to myself, 'dude.. have you REALLY been on the TTC? sounds like you haven't. At least we don't have crazies like Hamilton'.

And then I thought about it more... we do have crazies.

I only notice them once in a while, but is that just because I don't pay attention?
Why is it that when I'm not in a city that's my own, I look around more at the people?
Why is it that when I'm in a city that has a reputation for being ghetto, I get all shifty and suspiscious?


Fact to consider: I've heard more people say thank you on the Hamilton bus than in Toronto.

stale bread

I apologize - I haven't been blogging properly lately. I feel like I have nothing significant to write. A lot of things have been going on in my life - family, work, church, clubs, personal life. It feels like I'm trapped in a vortex and although I love the thrill of it, I feel a little lost. I realize how important it is to step out of your life sometimes and just look.

December's already here; 2010 is almost here. It's a little cliche but I think this is one of the first years I've been thinking hard about the past year.

3 Things I Accomplished
1. Went out and became more involved in my community/school
2. Read a lot more books than I've read in a while
3. Definitely spent a lot more time with close friends

3 Things I Learned About Myself
1. I don't want a clingy boy. I wouldn't mind an arranged marriage
2. I needs lists to motivate myself to do things; I'm obsessed with organizers
3. I definitely don't spend enough time for my friends

3 Things I Would Have Done Differently
1. Make a lot more new friends
2. Take care of my body/health a lot more
3. Spend more time with grandparents

3 Milestones
1. Breakup with Dennis
2. Small groups
3. This Blog

3 Hardest Times
1. Breakup with Dennis
2. December
3. Summer School Exam Time

3 Ways I'm Different from Last Year
1. I know a lot more about what I like / don't like
2. I am more confident in myself
3. I am refreshed in Christ

3 Things I'm Grateful For
1. Small Groups
2. Blogs / Emails with Friends
3. My Program is 5 years, not 4

my iron giant

i LOVE this movie.

right now, i'm feeling...
not overwhelmed but in awe at how much I'm going to have to do for the next term
it's a little daunting, i must admit
i feel like i'm watching a madwoman sign up for all these things
that madwoman is your's truly
i feel like the things i have to do is as big as the iron giant




yet i love that feeling of being overwhelmed
to the point where you have to stop, re-prioritize and then execute with maximum efficiency.




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