Captivate(d)

You say, strength is found in weakness
Peace in incompleteness
So why do I hold on?

You look, For a heart that's open
For beauty in the broken
So why am I withdrawn?

[pre-chorus:]
My soul's screaming out
To be found in You

[chorus:]
Spirit draw me to my knees
Captivate all of me, all of me
Here before You honestly
Captivate all of me, all of me

I'm so messy and distracted
Undisciplined and tactless
Here on the inside

I thought age would tell the secrets
But the secrets are still secret
And the years are passing by

...
Teach me to wait in the moments of my need
Teach me to hear the melodies of peace

2 more books

Water For Elephants:

Amazing story, tons of drama, and an extremely easy read. But I didn't like the ending. Not only was the ending a little too simple, but I felt like it was the ending of a different book - it just didn't belong.

Three Cups of Tea

Greg Mortenson is definitely my hero. With an unstable income and a dream, he manages to build school after school to educate girls in an area where his life is always in danger. This book definitely opened my eyes to the reality behind "helping others."
It's kind of a sad reality that although you want to help people, you will come to a point where you have reached your limit as to how many people you can help. And then you have to choose who to help. I don't know if I can or want to do that. But then again, helping some is better than helping none - right?

united states green-ness

FAIL
Limited space for recycling was found on top of the garbage cans. But usually only garbage cans were found (without the recyclables extension).


PASS
To power the street lamps, they had solar AND wind pannels - quite smart!

i want to be an academic

I found my calling in life. Well, for now.

Today was Journal Club - an exciting and stimulating place for discussion on all the hot topics as published in the latest and most credible papers.

Being in a room full of 70 residents and orthopedic surgeons was immensely intimidating. Not only was the material zipping over my head, I didn't want to ask a stupid question in fear of stating my obvious position as a... gasp... undergrad.

But it wasn't too bad.

Aside from the AMAZING free Indian food at an ALL YOU CAN EAT buffet, plus a paid for taxi ride to the restaurant from work, the sponsors of the event were kind enough to explain to me and the two other coop students the basics of fracture healing - before the discussion even took place.

I learned a ton of stuff, but what I found really stimulating was the frequent question of "what do you guys do." I think in the realm of science and health, it's a question that encompasses economics, technology, literature, as well as practicality. It's a question that is too often lost in the literature and studies of research, but it is necessary so that we learn from each others' triumphs as well as failures.

I had given up on being a doctor because I think I lost the reason why I wanted to be one. Sure, I want to help people, but being the selfish person I am, I don't think I want to risk putting my career in the bureaucratic grasps of our medical system to help a small amount of people.

Today, I saw the beauty of research. There are endless possibilities! Giving extra doses of Vitamin D to long term care patients significantly reduces the amount of fractures by a simple fall - who knew it was so simple! Debating when to use what surgical technique in encouraging the healing of bone fractures.

All of these have people of expertise and when these people come together for "the greater good", it's truly amazing! I still don't know what exactly I want to do with my life - doctor? public health? research? all three? But i know it's in the world of academia - somewhere.

Desert Song - Hillsong

Jill McCloughry's story is truly inspiring and almost unbelievable.
How could a mother who had just lost her child lead worship a week later?
What is it that keeps her going?

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow