November 30, 2010

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When we insist on details we miss out on quite a bit - PJoe

running man

you need to be able to use both your arms AND legs to be able to run; so sometimes god ties your legs so you learn to run with your arms.

- Rev. Han via P. Will

November 29, 2010

study music

Alice sent me this

http://www.youtube.com/user/StudyMusicProject#p/c/9/yvHF99zvmyc

Dolly - it made me think of you and how you always have Yiruma's River Flows in You on repeat. Try this for a variation :)

November 28, 2010

Dreams


I have notes on my iphone and some of them are random things from random places. I realized some of the sentences don't make sense but are still thought provoking. I was just going through my phone and found the following:


"dream that launches a movement"

It makes me wonder... will any of my dreams ever launch a movement? I dont' think i'm much of a revolutionary or someone who's going to make an impact one the world. Who knows, maybe I will become one or God will use me to be one?

To be honest though, I think I'll be quite content with being used to launch a movement in the people around me - to impact the way even a single person thinks or experiences life.

Just a thought :)


on the other hand, I realized that my productivity level late at night is very difficult to keep up :)

November 25, 2010

Encouraging Words

Just got an email from my pastor with encouraging words:

Don't try to run the world, or your world, or try to bear that weight
They're such simple words but I think the way they're put made me realize further how silly it is to try to control your own life. "controlling my life" seems so simple.. but "controlling my world" seems impossible.

Another good friend of mine sent me 1Peter 5:1-11.
"God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble and oppressed."
I am SUCH a proud person. I hate showing people weakness, I hate showing people that I can't do something, I hate asking for help.
But at the same time, I really DO want to be a humble person.

Humble yourselves, therefore, under Gods mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
I think I'm still learning what this means... to put myself in His hands; to cast my anxiety on him. For me, I think I'm really okay with putting long-term things in His hands. I know that in the end, He'll use me for something but it's the getting there that gets me agitated and I don't know what to do with myself..

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
Yea, this is so not me. Just the fact that I like to bury my sadness I think makes me less alert of myself and my relationship with God and with others. Being someone who can't think straight or isn't really in touch with her emotions is actually kind of distractingly frustrating.

Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your fellow believers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
People have been SO encouraging and I actually REALLY thank God for that. I think i'm slowly and painfully starting to dig the ground so that i can rebuild a firm foundation and the fact that thre are people praying for me who have gone through this kind of thing is even more encouraging

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.
Yes. This is the reason I don't break out crying every day anymore -haha. I'm definitely excited for the end and I guess now, even, the process.

To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.


1 Peter 5:1-11