Take My Life

Take my life and let it be
consecrated, Lord, to Thee.
Take my moments and my days,
let them flow in ceaseless praise.
Take my hands and let them move
at the impulse of Thy love.
Take my feet and let them be
swift and beautiful for Thee.

Take my voice and let me sing
always, only for my King.
Take my lips and let them be
filled with messages from Thee.
Take my silver and my gold
not a mite would I withhold.
Take my intellect and use
every power as You choose.

Here am I, all of me.
Take my life, it's all for Thee.

Take my will and make it Thine
it shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart it is Thine own
it shall be Thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord I pour
at Your feet its treasure store
Take myself and I will be
ever, only, all for Thee.
Take myself and I will be
ever, only, all for Thee.

Here am I, all of me.
Take my life, it's all for Thee.

Take my life, Lord take my life. Take all of me)

Here am I, all of me.
Take my life, it's all for Thee

Part 1: Temporary Home

December 22nd is the KCF banquet and as I encourage people to come, I'm realizing more and more how much KCF is changing. It's weird because I don't think I realized how fast it had changed. THe people have changed, I'm finding myself as one of the older ones (to my dismay), and the dynamics have changed as well.

It's not a bad thing - I think there's a lot more bonding than when I used to go to KCF as a frosh and I think there's a lot of huge vision from the exec team. It's weird because I haven't been able to see it until now and I think God's been blessing me IMMENSELY this week even with opening my eyes to so many things.

There's way too many but one of them is that the hope that this is my temporary home :) Someone shared this song with me and it's quite great hehe

Finding Rest

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light"

I'm really trying to find what gives me rest these days. I asked my parents and both of them said QT in their own ways - my mom it's just spending her GO train ride praying; my dad it's Lectio Divina. For others, it's through taking walks in nature and for others, it's through praise.

I don't know how to take rest. Phil once asked me how I take care of myself and I realize that I don't. Sure, I play a lot, but I think playing, doing dishes, and rearranging furniture are all ways I run away from my problems and give me that time that I don't have to think of things.

The passage above is pretty interesting. I realized that I've been trying so hard to find rest in things of the world and things that I do by myself and this is a good reminder that Jesus says "come to me" and not to other things, people, or places.

I still don't know what it looks like to fully give up control of my life, but I'm excited to see the outcome especially since I have a ton of people praying for me :)

harry potter!

So excited to see this tomorrow

when i grow up

i went to visit my habojee today and it made me really happy that he lives so close that I can see him whenever I want. He's a really lonely man and his typical days consist of either watching tv and sleeping or going to the woodbine racetrack to watch horses just walk around. He's almost 90 yet he's still walking around and has better lungs than my mom. not to mention he can talk louder than her too hehe. His hearing is going and claims that he's going to die soon, but he's a pretty stubborn man so he's got a couple more years left in him :)

But today, I learned that all his close friends have already passed away and he hangs out with people who are at least 10 years younger than him. Of course, he could be exaggerating, but I could tell he hates how he's aging alone. I told him how a lot of people don't believe me when I say he still goes out and takes the ttc despite his age and how he quit smoking cold turkey. I think that made him a little proud of himself leading him to laugh about how he used to be quite the hotty back in the day and quite the athlete.

As i was driving back home, I realized how scared I am of growing old. I'm so scared of growing old by myself too, but to be honest, I think it's a feeling that's both dreading but excited at the same time - if that makes sense. I know that when I get old, it'll be fun if there's my dear friends around and we just sit around talking.

I went to work this week and one of my patients almost missed her appointment because she was having a 3 hour lunch with her friends. I want that to be me! I want to grow old with my friends and drink tea and bake and reminisce about the days when we worried who we'd marry or about what we'd do after we graduated.