sad reality?

Today I was talking with my mom about how so many people are going into bio and wanting to go to medical school but end up so confused because they don't know what to do with their degree once they can't / decide not to go to med school.

health is an issue i'm a huge advocate for because there's so many more options out there than medical school and so many more options where you can help so many more people than if you were a doctor!

But then i was thinking about a conversation i had with someone i met at Konnect. He said that a lot of people go into architecture thinking that it's one thing, but once you get in, it's something totally different.

I'm so scared that's going to happen to me.
I'm so scared all the things i'm passionate for now won't have a job later on or there is no job.
I'm so scared that although I want to develop a mental health system for Korea and Canada, no one will listen to me, and I'll be stranded doing government work where everything is drowning in bureaucracy and moving at the speed of molasses.
I'm scared that I'll become someone who's mind become stagnant in the day to day routine of work.

I know a lady who's an accountant. She was originally in bio.
My aunt has a PhD in organic chem. She's a homemaker.
I know a pharmacist who found her job boring so she went to teaching.

I don't have anything against these people.

I just like to know my future won't take sharp turns or that I'll be bored with my degree...

to my future husband,

Today at KCF we talked about you. We had to list qualities that we want in our ideal man. Here's what i put/currently like:

1. eyes that smile (눈 웃음)
2. christian
3. musically talented
4. athletic
5. a leader
6. "teachable heart"
7. humble
8. funny and likes to joke around
9. passionate
10. reads!
11. thoughtful

and much more!

I don't know if you have all of these qualities but if you don't, it's okay! I just hope you have 10/11 of them - haha just kidding. Okay maybe like the important ones :) i know i don't have all of these qualities too but i'm praying that with time, i'll become more like the qualities I want to see in you!

I'm really excited to meet you and although this may sound creepy, hopefully when we look back on this, it will look more sweet than creepy - haha. Hopefully youre doing well and having fun in school!!!

Audrey

at 4AM...

it's amazing how your body wakes you up to go pee - instead of just letting you go. There is still that alert sense!

On a different note, I realized how busy I am and how busy i'm going to be for the next couple of months. Here's a look at my goals and my things to do:

goals
study the book of James
read 3 books
watch 10 good movies (have watched 1 - Changelings)
get through my mcat book on my own (I'm still in the physics unit T_T)
finish my work term report BEFORE december (topic pending approval)
go to urbana 09 (registration paid)
organize my iTunes (just for you, Jenny) (I'm sorry my dear, i havent done much with this)
take initiative at work (done a couple times - not enough)
go to 1 festival in toronto

current projects
work term report
topic: exercise vs. fractures caused by falls OR exercise vs. falls in general (a little harder)
PD5 - project management
5 more quizzes
assignment2: "starting a project" paper
assignment 3: cost/resource control, international vs. non-international projects, selection of project team members
Konnect Project
january - launch
march - high school retreat
KCSF Case Competition
program/event that will help the korean canadian community
thinking something along the lines of fitness awareness or something like that
Urbana fundraising
personal contacts
church food market
searching for ideas T_T

gadget freak

So as my painfully long 3-year contract with Telus comes to a close (December 27), I've been looking around for providers, plans, phones - a new life! Alright, a little exaggerated, but I'm stoked for my next phone.

The Contestants


1. iPhone
I know I vowed never to submit to the hype, but I swear, their marketing is amazing. Not only do i want the endless amount of apps, but it's so... multi-functional! which most of you should know, is what j'adore~


2. HTC Dream or the G1
I've wanted this for the longest time - it's just.. so pretty! And it's a smart phone - oh so convenient


3. LG Lollipop
Other than the fact that this was 2NE1's first released song (with big bang), i love the lollipop. With its customizable LED front for each person, and it's really pretty inside, i would LOVE to have it. Downside? It's not even out in Canada or the States and it's gonna be uber expensive - which i dont like because i totally regret paying 220 for my current phone.

slight autism

Autism: "brain development disorder characterized by impaired social interaction and communication, and by restricted and repetitive behavior" - Wikipedia (don't judge)
Asperger's Syndrome: "known as high functioning autistics because they can more or less operate in the day-to-day world" - jPOD by Douglas Coupland

I think i'm slightly autistic - or have Asperger's syndrome... a tiny... bit - haha

I was reading jPod by Douglas Coupland and a character was describing the autism traits that are found in her co-workers.

Character: Ethan
Trait: hyperacuity - certain sound frequencies make him go crazy (some, people can't hear)
Me: the high pitched whirring of my laptop charger drives me crazy

Character: Kam and Steve
Trait: both have virtually no sense of humour
Me: Sometimes I'll find my self where i'm like, I know that's funny.. but why am i not laughing..

i believe everyone has an autistic trait in them. Just my two cents.


Post Note (for dolly) - autistics are apparently really sensitive to smell - in the book, they hate the smell of McD's so it's called... the Taint