skiddadle - part 2

"You're so Indie"
What's Indie?
Popseoul labels Loveholic as "Indie"
I like loveholic.
huh?

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Logical:
I'm not going. I should tell them.
Illogical:
I'm not going. Let them figure it out.

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If only I did that yesterday
damnit.

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jPod is a funny book
I like quirky people.

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IRIS is out. Must. Watch.
T.O.P *swoon*

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Dude. Go online

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I get frustrated easily.
Not mad.
Why can't I learn to expect less of people?
Is this turning emo?

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GAH! the sinus pain.

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skiddadle

It's cold. Freezing cold. Time to put away the flats.
There's a couple. Oh, they're hugging. Must be warm.
Did it just get colder?

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our boss is back.
it's quiet.
REAL quiet.

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enrollment was today
i got into kin 100 - anatomy
i wasn't afraid of failure; i was excited
i got home and freaked out.
i'm better now; neutral is a better word

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manuscript bible study with mackcf small group
it was fun
i missed studying the Word

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i rented out jpod from mills library @ mac
people around me were studying for midterms
i was on the couch laughing.
it's a funny book

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i finished the glass castle
it's a good book.
what's it trying to say, though?

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sniff sniff
i think i'm getting sick
i never get sick
젠장

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warm bed
down blanket
warm slippers

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tomorrow is dinner with eumee
tomorrow is 1 to 7 degrees with a frost warning
tomorrow is a new day
hooray!

today, i was...

robbed.

check your bank accounts, maybe you were too.

don't cheat yourself

I've been having a lot of dreams lately and I don't always know what they mean (like the boot one), but I think it means I have a lot on my mind (고민 is the perfect word).

Yesterday's KCF was pretty awesome, humbling, fun - i needed it. Not that I've had a tough week or anything but I think living on my own, I'm getting a lot more time to think about myself and God, which can be a good and a bad thing.

KCF had bible study and we studied the chapter that says this:

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

Three things here.

1. Do not worry about my life. I had a dream last night where Dolly was going to her KIN100 class and I had a huge irresistable urge to go as well (I really want to take this class!) I was in the class and it was a great class but I woke up and panicked because lately, I haven't done so great in school. And then this got me to think about my whole med school dilemma again and it was a mess of panic in my mind.

2. But then I prayed about it and I was pretty much suddenly calmed as if someone was telling me that if I rely on Him, He'll provide because we're that much more important to Him than birds and birds don't even have to prepare food or whatever. Not that I can just sit back and laze away, but that if I do try my hardest (I don't think I have yet to be 100% honest), He will provide.

3. I've never really enjoyed art. I am trying because its something that's so dear to my brother's and my friends' hearts. It's something I feel like I have to understand but apparently it's something to "feel" in the words of a friend. I saw Salvador Dali's clock painting in grade 6 and didn't really like it. It was a little too... different for me.

I saw it this morning and was really sad. It's October already and I have accomplished a lot of my goals, but I feel like I cheated myself with simple goals that I didn't really have to work for. Time is slipping away, and I really want to change so that I can push myself.

i want...

to be a kid again.